fixed.

this world hurts so deeply. the faces i see are filled with a longing they cannot understand. a longing to fill a place they cannot find. a place that if filled, would forever change the state of their lives. this world runs about with goals that when met bring about no satisfaction. dreams that when fulfilled bring about a temporary satisfaction that never quite touches their soul. this world attempts to fill their lives with possessions and prizes, spending money they do not possess, and precious time not their own. homes are in shambles. 

living in this world has a tendency to frighten me with its utter seeming hopelessness. then He reminds me that He is the creator of the world that hurts so deeply. He sees the faces that are filled with a longing they cannot understand and tells them it can only be filled by Him.  He knows He can forever change the state of their lives if they will allow it.  only He can bring satisfaction that no self-met goal can provide. only He can allow dreams too big for human hands, to grow and become reality. the possessions and prizes that cannot be afforded are of no value whatsoever when compared to knowing Him. and so the world could know Him, He died. 

so i am not afraid. instead i am filled with urgency. i only have one, very small life. the longing of my heart has been eternally satisfied by the same One who created it.  He has forever changed the state of my life. no possession, no prize, and no person holds more value in my heart than He. and all that i am and all that i have, have been given to the One who gave it for His purpose, His kingdom, and His glory. i have but one objective, and that is the world.  i have found no other venture as worthy, no other calling as sweet, and no other purpose as Holy. 

for this i pray.  for this i run.  for this i live.  for this i will die. 

my heart is fixed.